Under Cover

That's right... I'm an undercover stay-at-home mother.  I say "under cover" because I'm not staying at home.  12 weeks and 1 day from my new baby's birth I will be returning to the workplace...

...and I hate it.

With my first son, I was ready to go back to work.  I was SOOOOOO ready!  But I always said that after I had my second child I wanted the option to stay at home.  Through a series of very unfortunate events - and also VERY fortunate events - my second son was born 10 years after my first.  New husband, new life, but the desire to be a stay-at-home mom stuck.  I've been spending the last 10 weeks enjoying the crap out of staying at home and taking care of my newborn.  Since I'm home my oldest (AJ) has been coming home on the school bus almost every day instead of being picked up by his grandparents.  I'm starting to get into a routine, and I've even managed to make a few nice dinners and pack a few lunches for my husband.  It gets easier every day, but it's all going to be different when I return to the office.

I'm thankful that I found in-home care for Axel while I'm gone.  Not only will I not have to worry about carting a newborn around in the mornings and evenings to and from daycare, but his dad will be able to see him before leaving for work and all of his baby creature comforts will be close by.  His crib, his toys, and I daresay, even his dogs!  Still, I can't help but think that the very best thing for him is to have his mommy take care of him.

Sad, sad panda.

But, UPSIDE!  My husband and I have agreed that with the next baby (hopefully to be conceived this summer) I will be able to take a year off of work so we can see if it's feasible to make it on one income.  Honestly, I can't wait.

My goal for the next year is to slip into an under cover SAHM role - really taking control of the house, organizing our lives, cutting costs and living within a budget and learning what I need to in order to make this new lifestyle work.

But before that I need to find some work clothes that fit!