Countdown

So, if I were to get pregnant this month I would be due on or around October 25th.
Yeah, I did the math.

When Hubby and I got pregnant with OUR first, I told him that I wanted another straight away.  Our plan was to start trying to conceive at the end of the summer and possibly have a June 2013 baby.  At that time I would take a one-year leave of absence to see if we could cut it as a single-income family.  If all worked out, I would be a SAHM by summer 2014.  Unfortunately Hubby got cold feet in August and told me he wanted to wait a year to have another baby.  While I held it together (and continue to do so), I think I might have died a little bit on the inside.

I knew it was coming. In fact, I had already called my OB's office and ordered up a new prescription of the NuvaRing.  And I understood where he was coming from, but I sure as hell didn't like it.  AND he decided to spring it on me while we were on vacation.  Not cool.

I went back on birth control at the end of August, begrudgingly.  Immediately I noticed a difference in my body. I was grumpy, had more headaches, my periods were harder because my natural cycle is longer than the synthetic one I'm now suffering through.  I was sad - maybe even a little depressed - that our "master plan" had been pushed off.  Hubby's financial worries are valid, but the fact that I'm 36 and have a couple health hiccups that COULD impede having kids are not to be ignored.  And while I haven't really nagged him about it, I've made my concerns known.

This week he has relented and said that he's ready to move forward - ONLY if I promise that our baby won't be born in November (he couldn't handle the hunting-season guilt...)

So, here we are.  And I'm kind of scared.  Okay, really... I'm kind of petrified.

Living on one income is not going to be easy.  I need to research some stuff.  I need to get ducks in a row.  I need to start budgeting, planning, etc.

But first I need to get pregnant!  *fingers crossed for October 2013!*